The people and Activities I want to cut down on unfortunately are in my job that pays the bills.
I have discovered I am more about projects than rote and cyclical activities. Yet in a time of a slowing economy, when we've lost so many people, it is the "same ol, same ol" activities that must be done instead of the creative, proactive ones that I so enjoy. The projects still need to be done but when I am working my position and major pieces from two other vacant positions, it is tough to do those things that are crying out to be done.
I am quite busy. I work 4, 10 hour days, I work for a healing foundation another day, I am an event coordinator and chairperson, I have classes for my spiritual needs, I have U of R classes, I am a Mom and wife. What I am missing is time spent with friends. Even though I consider the foundation and my classes fun, it is also work. I am missing physical time. Most of it is intellectual.
My nature is such that I am always there to help but I don't need many of the very intimate relationships (except for my husband and kids.) There are only so many hours in the day as it is. They are where I want to concentrate right now as they are the ones I am missing when I am so busy.
When school is done that will free up some more time. I do need to call up some friends I have known since childhood and hook up with them when I go back to the town I grew up in this holiday season. I am planning on meeting a cousin I haven't seen since I was about 13 and we are going to watch Air Force beat Army at West Point. I am going to meet up with a couple we haven't seen in ten years - since we left the military, so these things are coming. I can be patient.
I am fine on the power and recognition scale. There is always lots to do, valuable and appreciated feedback, I am doing good work.
I would like some me time. I tend to get that when the semester ends. Where I lack in our fine circle is the freedom section - although to be honest with you, I am okay with it because of the gains in the other areas right now. Soaking in a tub sounds like such luxury. Reading a book... taking a walk in nature is a treat, decorating for the holidays - all that is coming into season for me. I bought some daffodil bulbs today and will plant them for the spring time viewing.
It is all about the timing.
Chapter 7
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So I see that busy is normal and normal is indeed busy! I can relate on the need to connect with old friends as I have been trying to do just that. However depressing it may seem Facebook is about as far as I have come so far. But its a safe, easy start to perhaps actualy meeting up and rehashing the old and learning of the new.
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